I want you to meet my BBF that is what I will call him. He will be my BBF on this blog from now on to protect the innocent. Now what that means is this I will not stop blogging, I will not stop being the person that I am and I will not conform to live my life to satisfy those who want to put me in a box. I have spent my entire life getting in these special boxes people made for me so that THEY can be comfortable and I will NOT SPEND MY REMAINING DAYS ON THIS EARTH GETTING IN A BOX FOR ANYONE EVER AGAIN.
So now meet my BBF. A very interesting person of sorts who has been in my corner allowing me to get it. That's what he calls it.
BBF tells me I'm bullheaded, stubborn like a mule and that I need to learn how to learn from him that he is not trying to hurt me or be mean or harsh but that he wants to pour into me what he knows. Well BBF you know that's kinda hard to do because being a single woman
since I have always had to make decisions for my children and I and for my household and for my life and now you are like getting all old school on me telling me that I need to learn my place?
Ok let me explain that to some of you. I don't think BBF means it like you are a woman get in your place but he is saying hey you are talking about you want to be a married woman let a man do what a man is supposed to do and that is what I want you to learn from me. Learn to submit and let the man be the head. OMG my head just spun around I just spit out green goo!
But back to BBF. He is a really cool guy, he growls a lot and barks even louder than he growls and talks more drama than I know what to do with. I don't take kindly to being growled at and he knows that. He laughs when he upsets me cause I go on these rants and raves and he just sits there and looks at me like I've lost my mind. He may even lean back and laugh at me again.
I know I am a handful to deal with but you know my BBF is a handful.
Let me tell you why I appreciate him. He has been a friend to me from day one not pushy not demanding. The only thing he has ever done was move out of the way to let me do what I told him I would. That was it. It has not been pretty nor drama free. But boy have we have had some fun and memorable times.
Truth be told it was like I needed someone to come along to show me something I needed to see and then boom there he was. It was like my spirit called him. I needed a teacher. You want the truth the student is having a hard time passing the class. He knows it. But obviously our friendship is about me learning and him teaching and him learning and me teaching. He too is having a hard time passing the class. Brothaman can be pretty crass at times. But that's just the way he is and at his age I don't see him changing.
I appreciate BBF because he is just himself. I don't have to put on airs or pretend to be anyone that I am not around him and when I am around him I don't really care what others are thinking or saying. Only him. Cause sometimes we review the day go over what has happened what can change and so forth. So I'm learning. I'm very grateful to have a friend that is like him allowing me to grow and shift. In my Paradigm Shift. Cause right now its day what 46 and I am still shifting.
What I am learning here with him I will be able to take with me wherever I go. But hopefully when I go and I will one day he will be right there as well.
Ladies and gentlemen, meet my BBF................
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