The Comonique Files Session One

I often think about the people that I have left behind as I went about my life. Lately I have been feeling really guilty about that since I left high school took my infant daughter and moved to Atlanta without a clue. I left you, I left siblings that needed me I ran and kept running til about five years ago. It hurt for so long, the pain and anger was so deep.
I can face it now and tell the truth as I know it so you will know I never meant to leave you I meant to change the bloodline. I didn't know that was what I was doing but I did it and I want you to know you can too.
I am laughing about it now but I think back to those days and wonder what in the world was I looking for by leaving a three bedroom house full of furniture my little blue Chevy Chevette and my low wage paying job.
Oooh I know what I was looking for. I was looking for a peaceful nights sleep, and a place where my crazy family could not find me and ruin my total existence. You know I really mean that.
I literally wanted to disappear but how do you do that when every time you look in the mirror you see the people that you are running from because they ARE you? They are your blood your family and that history runs deep in your veins so far sometimes that things you didn't know about your family you are reliving and you don't even know why. Since you don't know why and what happened you repeat what Mama did or daddy did and so on and so on.
That's what began to happen to me and I had to catch it before it was too late. I saw it began to happen to me when I was about 21 and knew right then and there that something had to give.
What I am not going to tell you Comonique, is that it came to me in a flash. I didn't know per se, it was how I was feeling, it was how I was living and the people that were around me. I didn't like it and I wanted out I wanted something different. That's what I wanted.
More on that later.
Welcome to the truth from me. I want you to know the facts that were given to me. What I know, what needs to be shared with you and with others out there so that they that they know in order to get out of the box whatever that is for them and YOU, you must look at what happened, really study it, cry if you must, hurt if you must, never forget cause you can't, respect what you know, be proud of who you are and live strong.
Here is my story cause you need to know the truth.

For you,

Cause I love you,

(Pic my mom and dad at my sister's wedding)

Your Cuz, (Y've)