I know because I remember thinking when I woke up, "Mmmmm Timeka's birthday is this week I only have five days to get her something". That was after I remember falling back into my body.
Each and every one of us gets up eventually. Someway, somehow we get up and we move to the next levels in our lives.
Some how we keep rolling on to the next change in our existence.
That's what happened to me that day when I woke up with that tube in my throat and on the side of my neck helping me breathe. Today is the day I had my rebirth and a time to start over.
People tell me the one thing that I kept saying over and over before I had emergency surgery was "My kids, my kids I have to be here for my kids" and then I would black out again.
I can remember my follow up visit...the oncologist, my general practitioner and the physician's assistant on my case all came in in to me when I returned. Each one said there was no way that I should be alive, all of my organs had shut down. I was dead. Period. A very sick woman they said.
One said very bluntly "You are not supposed to be here". Of course I knew better.
I knew the real truth. I knew that I was and am supposed to be here with the challenges ahead of me as the contrast to help me continue to make the changes I want in my life.
I am not Jesus Christ. I could not begin to know nor understand what He went through as He was persecuted for crimes He did not commit, or how He died for a world of people that did not know about Him nor did many care. But He did.
What I CAN say is I know what it is like to keep living and come back from a place of such beauty and peace and love and joy for the PASSION AND LOVE that you have for your children.
I know some of you may not believe in the "Resurrection" and that is ok by me. What I know now is that we all have a chance at our own "Resurrection" if we accept it. If we accept that change must happen in our lives and that sitting down is not an option for life to be better.
My renewal happened again two years later as I fought kicking and screaming into something that I asked for. I asked to be happy. What I didn't know was that it meant some people in my life had to go and when that happened I hurt all over and thought I was dying but I didn't. I woke up to live another day and keep going.
This year I woke up today and realized that yet again I am not the same person that It was LAST year this time. Again another rebirth has occurred in my life and I love it and appreciate the lesson in knowing that I too have had an awakening. I have come to realize that today I will celebrate Easter this day of recognizing how Jesus Christ died for the sins of a world that did know Him at the time, have a chance at life because of what He did. I will celebrate by celebrating MY OWN awakening. Where am I now? What do I do now that I am alive and awake and aware that I did not think I was going to ever do?
I am grateful for this chance to find out.
See Ya Next Time,
Y've
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