KJ Finds Himself

If you are not aware by now I am the single mom of four beautiful children. I am mom to three daughters and one little three year old man child.
We call him KJ for Kevin Jr.
Until recent he was just the little fella that was sucking one finger and running around the house in nothing more than a pull up that he soon discarded for boxers. Yes my son has a preference in underwear even at this age.
KJ is quite the character constantly wanting all of my attention from watching me wake up in the morning and going to the bathroom to pee, or just following me from the minute he gets off the bus to the minute he goes to bed at night.
NONE of my daughters was like this at all. They were very independent and in control of their personal play time. NOOOOO not this little guy.
He seems to want my attention more than usual to the point where he was getting on my nerves from morning til night.
I hear people say "You will miss this time"
No hell I won't either! I rather liked knowing that my children could hold their own Really I do and I hope that he will one day get it that he will need to stand on his own.
I do think that he is starting however. Something profound happened the other day.
I was sitting in my office working and had been working for some time when I realized everyone was home and it had been quiet for about three hours. I got up to see where everyone was in the house and found Imani and Lili in the living room. Imani the eldest in the house of course was texting and using her laptop. Lili was watching the Disney Channel. KJ on the other hand was no where to be found and how I could tell was the silence.
I check the toilets, sinks, still no KJ.

I finally resolved he must be in a bedroom so I go around and sure enough there he was in his room at his little table seated in front of the television watching Nickelodeon!
He looked up and said "Hi Mother!" and smiled at me looking away long enough for me to hear the beginning of a Spongebob cartoon.
I walked away expecting to hear his little feet walking behind mine but they weren't there. I looked behind me and leaned back into the room and looked at him. He didn't even bother to look back at me he just kept watching cartoons.
I wondered at that moment how long would it be before he would be seeking cleats and a jockstrap and the love affair he has with me is gone? Not forever just quietly sealed next to his heart. A place NO ONE can ever get to.
Til then I think KJ is finding himself.

Til Next Time,

Mamma (Y've)