Praying For The Best

So far this year I am doing just fine. I know am not the only one but I know that I am sitting here wondering from one minute to the next what in the world could be worse at this moment?
I laugh at that and say nothing could be worse cause really where I am is not that bad. You know sometimes if we just think for just a moment about all of the things that we have going on that looks like it will do us harm, or will affect us....when it happens guess what?
We are still breathing, we are still alive, the second it happens it is over and a new time space reality occurs at that moment and then another and yet another.
Yeah I know that sounds all profound and stuff but many of us know this as just "I will be ok" and nothing more.
Prayer is going to be the thing for me this year. I mean like really top notch priority. Daily before I roll over to slide into my slippers I want to lie still in my bed and take deep breaths and concentrate on talking to God.
Now I know many of you are already like well didn't you do that anyway in all that you have lived and been through? No and yes and yes and no. I had my days like all of us where you were so caught up that you might have said "I don't have time"
This year I cannot do that. I don't have time not to have time with God this year. I need to so focused on my goals and projects right now that my thoughts need to be only on Him for guidance and understanding nad truth in all things.
I need no slip ups this year. Really I cannot afford them. Mentally, emotionally and monetarily I cannot go there and be in a dark place at all.
Right now I look at my situation and say "How in the world am I going to get out of this?" Now don't play and pretend that you have never been where I am right now because you have. What I know is that this place I am in is teaching me how to be still when I have done all I can do. When there is nothing else that I can bring to the table, I am learning to lean on God and trust him.
It's not hard really, but seeing where I am makes it feel like I will be here  forever and I know I won't be because the season will change as they always do. The cold will give way to warm, and the seeds that fell in autumn will sprout and grow and the harvest can begin.
I know. So today and for the rest of the year, God you have my full attention and I am listening.



Til next time in prayer I go yet again,

Mamma ( Y've)