Oh my goodness this seems like the longest day! I planned my days of this week last week if that makes sense so that I could be available for all of the things that I need to do. As long as I can get an internet connection, I can pretty much work anywhere. So with that in mind I am working more and in more places.
Along with my swap meet and several work at home jobs that I do and my event plannings projects, and being mommy, I am starting to burn at both ends and am feeling my wick burn close to the middle.
I woke up this morning worked a while and decided that I wasn't going to do a thing all day after I signed on and worked a while on a couple projects, blogged and updated some sites I monitor for pay. But it wasn't that I didn't want to it was as if I realized that if pushed myself anymore today I was going to fall out from exhaustion and then what good would I be? I mean I don't really know what a vacation is right now since I am trying to make my life better. There is no time for rest and relaxation but today I took it. No, my body forced me to. I got up and had to lie back down literally. I lay there with two laptops on my bed (sad huh?) and just fell asleep. I woke up around 1 and then sat in the tub for two hours before going to pick up Lili today.
I actually desperately searched for my vitamins and my B12 and St Johns Wort and CoQ10 which I took religiously to get my energy back up. I cannot for the life of me figure out what the hell is going on.
Is this age, am I starting to feel the effects of the Diffuse Axonal Injury which one of the symptoms is sleepy and tiredness without explanation, or is it heart disease as in women that is one way to know you need to get to a doctor.
Or maybe just maybe I need to slow down, refuse to give myself anymore projects and work on what I have and then make a decision to hire help, delegate more and more often and trust they will do the job correctly and honestly.
Mmmmm that's a thought.
Who knows but I most certainly need to do something and quick so I don't make any goofy decisions in a tired state of mind.
Til Next Time
Mamma
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